“You and all your friends all hate me, thinking that you’re better when I’m not around, hit me on the radio and turn it down…”
How can I explain when you’re not talking? How will I ever know your thoughts when you just stare from afar? I don’t think I’ll ever believe those eyes. The motives behind the behavior will appear in my thoughts to oppose those expressive eyes. Will I ever believe if you tell me how you feel? Do you think I’ll accept those words of yours? I wouldn’t know. Half of me hopes that you would still reach out. But that half will only remain in my head. How I wish I could turn back time and hope that whatever conversations we would possibly talk about becomes real at the moment. Truth be told, reality is pain. I am aware of what I’ve done and what you’ve done too. You appologized and I wasn’t even sorry of not considering your appology. I don’t think I’ll ever be. The pain is uncurable. Maybe now even if I hope to still hear your voice, there’s now a barrier between the two of us. You weren’t that fascinating to me. Why did you even came into the picture? I didn’t ask for your existence. I considered you as a friend. It feels like you betrayed me out of something that’s unrealistic. Your feelings. It killed you and it triggered me. I am sure of my words. I knew I didn’t feel anything to you. I think you’re deceived of everyone else’s voices. Were you conformed with the teasing? Does your heart beat when you see me? Does your mind echo when you hear my name from someone else? I don’t know. You will remain as a memory to me. For now, I wish you good luck. I still consider you as a friend. I hope you find love at your worst and at your best. I appologize for the unreciprocated feelings. I’m just here to help you. So, I hope you realize that you have to help yourself first. Goodbye, friend. See you when you’re finally awake.
Peppermint Thoughts 